i can destroy you
but you can't destroy me

i may weep over your words-
but you will fall from my thoughts-

i know you are pointless in my existence
as am i in yours
but you think i am crucial and my
views are of great relevance

let my hatred not faze you -
it is petty and of no meaning
truely you are shallow & i am strong
for i realize you can not destroy me


i'm so sorry i lied
it hurts so bad inside
i wanna tell you but
i don't know how-
i feel like dieing here
lying here on the floor
it would be easier than telling you
because then you would still love me- if you
knew you'd hate me-cause right now i hate
myself- i feel so dirty & wrong

you're my solace in lifes
but if you knew the truth
you'd cast me out among the rest-
i need to tell you -
you have to know-
i can't be content until you see the true me-
filthy & unclean as
i may seem



small and petty

you seem small & petty now-
i need you less than i imagined
i'm stronger than i thought
not even maternal tears can make me cry-

to see my perfect little vision in flames-
i'm too cold inside-
more than i want to be
i want to cry

but i'm not strong enough to cry
i've went so far as to not care about my feelings

but feel sorry for yours-
when i'm the one suffering