small and petty

you seem small & petty now-
i need you less than i imagined
i'm stronger than i thought
not even maternal tears can make me cry-

to see my perfect little vision in flames-
i'm too cold inside-
more than i want to be
i want to cry

but i'm not strong enough to cry
i've went so far as to not care about my feelings

but feel sorry for yours-
when i'm the one suffering