until today

until today my life was in order,
a distorted order- but planned and right
none the less- in fewer words than an
apology you smashed my future-
dry faced and brave, i bared the truth
i must persist now in my confused
environment - but just know that
you deflated all my existence today in
that moment of truth- uncertain of
latter plans - i touched hopelessness-
sedated by my own dismay....