21.4.04

I CAN'T SLEEP & I'M AFRAID YOU ARE

I'M ALONE WITH MY SELF
BORDERING RESTLESSNESS

THERE ARE SHADOWS DANCING ON THE
WALL FROM THE CANDLE LIGHT & A
SAD SONG STINGING IN MY EARS-

BUT I AM NOT LONLEY
I AM MORE CONTENT THAN I HAVE BEEN
IN SUCH A TIME- THAT I'M NOT EVEN SURE
IF I EVER WAS
BUT I AM ANCY-I AM ANXIOUS

I FEEL I DON'T REMEMBER HOW TO BE
COMFORTABLE
I FEEL THIS SHOULD BE WRONG-
BUT YET I'M UNSURE OF HOW TO CHANGE THIS
FEELING


NERVOUSLY AT EASE-IS THIS AS PLEASANT AS I CAN FEEL

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20.4.04

really alone

YOU DO KNOW I'M
NOT REALLY ALONE

I CAN HEAR FOOTSTEPS IN THE HALL
& VOICES IN THE OTHER ROOM

AND THERE ARE CONVERSATING PEOPLE
OUTSIDE MY WINDOW-
AND WHAT ABOUT HER- WALKING AROUND ABOVE ME

& THE VOICE THAT IS SINGING MY SONG-
SHE KEEPS ME COMPANY & TELLS ME HOW I FEEL-

ALWAYS REMINDING ME THAT I TRUELY AM ALONE-
THAT SHE IS ALL I HAVE-
THAT THERE IS NO ONE OUTSIDE MY WINDOW-
THAT WAS ALL A LIE-- & MY APARTMENT IS
VACANT AND COLD