rain and responsibility

i'm so sad today..
the weather and
guilt from responsibilty don't help

i'm always searching for that next day.. that next hour where everything will feel right again..
but it continues to be a struggle..

people can try to make me happy..
but i'm not impressed..

all i can say is thanks for caring enough..

just know that in whiskey i'll be happy again..
and you'll feel more at ease.. and we can have fun and play and laugh..
and with every drink you can think you are the one that brings me joy..
and with every tear i'll know that only i can find happiness for myself

but i don't know where to look..
i don't know what secret rock i must look under for my smiles..

i know everyone has their times of lonliness and heartache..
now is mine..