my love affair

i feel like i could drown right now-
drown in an ocean of pills...

& it would be so romantic-
like a fairy tale-
just to fade away in a daydream-


you'd find me - dreaming on-
in my bed-
arm draped down off the side of the bed-
close to touching the floor -
w/ cigarette in hand- -
burnt down to the filter-


i would look peaceful in
a deranged sort of way



how romantic those pills sound now.....